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Dear Mark The Artists Diary 30.04.09 by Belinda Mary Hale B.A Hons M.A
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Wednesday 29.04.09

 

Dear Mark,

 

published.. went to bed... woke around 06.00pm

had breakfast bathed.. did some more painting and cleaning...sorted out the spare cardboard for packaging...shopped for some bits and pieces...met a guy on the way home who bore a startling resemblance to someone whom I know but either he didn't recognise me or I didn't recognise him....he said that he knew me but I didn't recognise the voice...the accent...my dresss??? Time passes... but that wasn't his voice... Who knows... said hello...no doubt we'll laugh about it in due course if it we do know each other...people run into one another in London.. Mat was never entirely sure and he would agonise over whether to cross the road and speak to someone or not....I would just drift on if I didn't have the time to stop,...when out and about...a nod a wink...by the way it was Edward not Patrick whom I hadn't seen on the market for some time.. he was back on the weekend looking well enough,.......?

kept seeing someone else whom I thought I knew eventually plucked up the courage to say hello and if course it wasn't them...Notting Hill is like that.. people breezing through....drifting...as I was...in the sun... am having a proper spring clean and no doubt will be entertaining people here again soon...it will be fit for guests..I just don't like it when there are odd jobs to do ...shelves to put up plants to pot...but my compost heap is looking rather good and artistically dishevelled...with plants growing on it...the egg shells are particularly pituresque.. in true urban art style...

must get on and haven't finished those precious accounts yet...so want this place to be tidy and clean and nice and relaxed and not smacking of work and struggle..  darling of course there isn't and hasn't been anyone else...how could I ..love is something that doesn't go away...so thinking of Van Gogh..and his glorious sunflowers.. there is a picture of a painting of his at the Sausage and Mash Cafe...I love his paintings  so much.... the burning spirit of love ...passion and hope.... painting is so beautiful...the smell of the oils is so evocotive and brings back so many memories...painful and beautiful....whatever happened to my paintings...my soul was plastered all over them... Van Gogh live on through his paintings..me I feel torn between the spirit and the earth.....sweet misery....so much want to be with you

no solutions no end to these issues....

 

with respect Belinda Mary Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

Tuesday 28.04.09

 

Dear Mark,

 

got up around 08:00...having published last night had some supper alone as usual ...bathed did some more cleaning tidying... am tackling the backlog of boxes to dismantle and store? or chuck..... recycle... am getting there.. also dealt with an enquiry...from online...really would like a break...so did do some more painting...and had an afternoon nap.... don't want to get swine flu so don't want to be overtired... I like to get the sleep that I need and to wake up naturally..

it helps with making decisions....

still no resolution in respect of the IPR issues ..need to finish my accounts...and prioritise more immediate business....had a phone call so my phone is back in action fully..those pictures from that photo shoot yes I would like them subject to my accounts being completed...ok I know that they're not due for quite some time but I cannot do them last minute again...not now that that time of year is the busiest for me....   anyway...still want your baby and you of course you silly beggar... and with respect I have never asked you for money let alone charged you to be seen with me or vice versa.. what other people get up to is their business... good luck to them... neither would I discuss my private life with such people or have I done but I write this diary in order that people may judge for themselves what it is that I have to say and I will not have them putting word sin my mouth.. what they read into innocent words is no doubt subject to their interpretation but don't blame me for the interpretation that they place upon things that is their issue not mine and no doubt subject to their personal concerns.. not to mention experiences which can hardly be classified as mine. They may speak for themselves on the basis of their expertise. By they way that cat tried to make off with one of the cockerals as well...I caught it in time...  it is a real life cat and I do not talk in code...some people are seriously delusional you know.... the cat is not it like to hunt and in the absence of being allowed in to the garden all the time.. it strut around the parapets here and if my windows are open it pays me a visit and it particularly lies to play.... with anything that is not nailed to the floor.. it really is a curious cat... having observed it sneak off with the feather from my bowl of little gatherings from walks on the beach...in the woods etc....I am quite satisfied that  cat burglars are just that and that anything missing is 'gone with the cat'...but my artworks...I don't think so... the real culprits may pray but they won't becoming back with the cat.... and don't get me wrong he is a very entertaining cat... and about the only company that I do receive and like any good animal he knows that he owns the place...he does get quite annoyed if I won't let him in.. throwing himself at the window on occasion...it's nice to be wanted.. or rather preyed upon.. he hasn't made off with me yet...

 

with respect Belinda Mary Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

Monday 27.04.09

 

Dear Mark,

 

got up around 08:00...of course I published last night bathed had some supper alone as usual and watched some TV it was already very late and it was a frightening film which I did not watch to the end....I think that the sex debate really has impacted on the industry and one of the reasons that I suspect caused BECTU embarressment in respect of 'copyright' was that due to certain decisions by the censor.. not to mention that the ipr fees due in respect of certain types of 'performances' were less than clear...let's say even less clear than those in respect of animated characters...some activity is perhaps more 'instinctive' than 'artistic'...anyway the outstanding amount of fees due to certain parts of the membership might potentially have bankrupted the union had they had to pursue them...which is why I graciously bowed out and joined the NMTF...frankly they cover me for what I do in many respects and will not have issues in respect of my animation fees...BECTU were preserved from at least having to fight my case and quite frankly due to the sticky wicket in respect of the potential 'filmatic acts' I would probably still be stuck on that wicket for the next 10 years or so ....I do want a life and my fees being an unpaid voluntary elected rep for 10 years is as much as I have any intention of dong so please no offers of voluntary work....I am not in a position to undertake such work and a lovely lazy time it is not plus I really an not the right person to forward that particular 'brief' for highly personal reasons. It simply is not an area of work in  respect of which I have the right qualification let alone expertise and my case was simply to unique for the Union to collectively organise around...I wasn't going to get lost in the heady shower of sexual politics...lets say....I've had my fill and quite enough thank-you...it's not the sort of exchange that I'm looking for....I do the work they insult and take the credit no thank-you ...the fine art of insolence...it is not necessarily a sign of intelligence to be rude...some times it really is symptomatic of extreme stupidity....get lost...please...ironically it was what I joined the union to escape in some respects....but they issues have caught up with them...as a young Mother those concerns were not mine...being a working Mother tends to keep one on the straight and narrow as do those around you well at least in my case. I was no doubt lucky but I am seething with fury about the injustices that I have suffered as t being lumped in with issues which I do not have and concerns which are not mine. My concerns are related entirely to the artwork that I have created to over the years and the childrens' animations that I have contributed to not to mention the identity fraud issues that I've suffered as a result of certain CRB application forms being lost....no doubt the finger of vice is every where in society and it is impossible to avoid it let's hope I don't get swine flu...have been sneezing along with others but thought that it was the pollen.. have had a quiet day...painting baking...umhmm flan and biscuits...cleaning and doing the washing.. tidying up a but ..hey by tomorrow who knows...I may be presentable...needed a very slow day to make up my mind about certain purchases that I need to make...missed 2 calls due to my handset being out of action so went top the store to get some batteries and no doubt it will be late before I get to bed....no resolutions...to the issues and painting brings up the pain over my  artwork and takes me right back to what happened before that whole horrendous episode in my life...before we were made homeless...probably why I work digitally it stops the associations....I feel the burning emotion of fury as I move the brush across the canvas...pure fury at the evil of those who abuse and violate the integrity of artistic expression by seeking to misappropriate the artists intentions and thought by debasing there views with their own one track minded and vulgar ideas. I won't have it and I won't talk to those who want to offload there vulgarity on me whilst appropriating my ideas to their vulgar and debased works. It is simply misrepresentative...and inappropriate as well as wrong fraudulent and abusive.. That conference really was the height of vulgarity which I'd been dutifully avoiding for years. I can't stand it. Just as I've seen better in penthouse the and the same applies if I wanted it I'd get it off the top shelf but I don't. Sadly some people have nothing else to offer and it is really sad.. to see such debasement passed off as epression or art... it is neither it is simple sex.. anyone can do and surely you don't need a degree to do so and I spent 6 years at Uni. I wouldn't have bothered had that been what I wanted to do honestly I wouldn't and it insults me to have any such thing implied. I have every right to take offence to any such insinuations. I most certainly did not spend 6 years in Union order to 'ghost artwork' for such individuals so that they can take my efforts and pass them off as theirs whilst tarring my reputation with their debased lifestyles.. not to mention trying to tell me who I may and may not see...get lost doubly ....they are not me and I am not them... trust me the Church will have to address the issues of the CRB clearances or I will se them in court for criminal professional negligence in respect of their duty of care to members of their congregation... it's bad enough being frankly 'propositioned' by members of a Church's congregation ...but is the pits to be told that one must obey male authority figure...when one is actually doing so and is criticised for doing so...???!  I have complied to relevant parties and I expect explanations...double standards can not be enforced and will not suffice as any justification for their lack of integrity in respect of child protection...they really need to take a very good look at their attitudes.. I

want explanations and I will not shut up until I get them and I mean it. If they have had any thing to do with my missing artwork I want that addressed in full public. I will not sign any confidentiality agreement ever. I really do not have any regard for how very high class the sex-workers are I will not have anyone take my artwork and put their signature on it...they know who and what I mean and I mean it most sincerely... I do appreciate that the oldest profession and the oldest religions in the world revolved around sex-working but I am not concerned with it and do not intend to be concerned with it. I may have attended a human rights school but it taught me to speak up for myself and I will and I do.. I wasn't taught to be blindly obedient to any man who tells me to drop my knickers for money like some of your superior teaching establishments seem to encourage.. according to their own little darlings self professed assertions...I am not one of any ones little darlings...I am me and I intend to stay that way and to freely associate with whom ever I want to,. As I have every right to do.  as for you sir.. you may speak for me in respect of what I want as you so know what I want and I still want your baby. Because I love you it's that simple and I want a baby.

ps if the little darlings have experienced the oops factor it's really because they're to busy dishing out the abuse to have been inclined to think of the consequences...to themselves and to others they may consider themselves to be women's' liberationists but I view them more as the women's' fibbers.. self interested and only concerned with trampling over other women in order to aggrandise themselves at the expense of what little these women do receive and victim blaming the women that they defraud.... I have no time or concern for them if anything as I have said before they certainly demonstrate that women are as capable of evil as men are is that really progress...? I am as hard as nails on this and I intend to remain that way they just better hope that I still have another child it might pacify me a little...otherwise I will have nothing better to do than ensure that they experiences as much hell and I can legally wreak upon them...an eye for an eye a toothe for a toothe..

 

with respect Belinda Mary Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

Sunday 26.04.09

 

Dear Mark,

 

got up around 06:00...of course I published last night bathed had some supper alone as usual and watched some TvTV a favourite cliff hanger from my favourite TV  Series...and went to bed....another 7 hours sleep is a luxeryluxury indeed... ..got to the market set up...must get there earlier...as it takes me 2 hours to set up...caught up with some tidying up pricing and re-stocking by which time Marge had arrived to help clear up...I had some food first...a very quiet day   Lukes' girlfriend was very quiet ..she was posing for Annabel yesterday...opps sorry she's a little 'dumb' and 'blonde' very pretty but frankly as she's all cardboard it's hardly surprising..dunno what he's doing with her....people are endeavouring to get to know me ...which is nice...but I am quite cautious...I sdon't like to mislead 0people wespeciallypeople especially in light of my 'watchingwatching brief ' whilst at BECTU...it was a strictly 'watching brief ' only...( the whole sexworking issues..after all BECTU do not respesent them the GMB Unions have been approached and the Unions are rather tetchy about stepping on one another's toes in respect of 'negotiatting rights' and lets simply say that they are much much much bigger than BECTU...on the other hand BECTU have the benefit of on the spot 'insights' which we were happy to share in debate in light of the full support that BECTU grant their members in respect of their right to freedom of expression but as little Union they do know when to maintain standards and to keep their briefs in place...not to mention follow 'policy' which it was my duty to represent and which I did. We voted in favour of the amended proposition in respect of the requests to legalise prostitution and voted for the consideration of the legislating of let's say 'sex-working'.. and an almighty debate there was indeed..behind the scenes..on the floor it was more tempered...what I had to say was reduced entirely to 3 lines..all that needed to be said was indeed said...not our concern as such ..as that was some years ago and the matter is no longer my concern in any respect what so ever I was their as an equality rep...things may have changed but the issue of the abuse of individuals trafficked for sex-working was also addressed and support fort he freeing of such individuals given)  and suffice to say Union Conferences do not legislation make...that is done by Government and the people...and at the time it was very widely debated and in particular on TV as they most certainly had much to say about the matter.. lots of 'talking heads'..from Ms Greer to Sex-workers in person...the content was ethical, political and looked at social issues, legislate as well as health even the religious community thoroughly applied themselves to the matter...if anyone missed it ..how?  it's still rolling...wherever you look....)   got packed up after re-assuring the gents that men are also represented on the equality Committee at BECTU...as well as notably at the TUC...quite dominantly..not to mention at most conferences that I've attended ..bar the Womens' TUC...where even visiting female politicians look nervous.. it's frightfully strict.. trust me they let their hair down in the evening... a  most unforgettable experience and I'm still getting over it...don't ask....all I can say is that is a most heady experience and left me on no doubt as to the fact that it is a very necessary forum...any woman who thinks that women's' rights are not an issue is sadly mistaken and although I've always heartily supported the right of men in respect of 'equality' the law is not evenly balanced...yet...women ignore this at their peril...

I most certainly would not forfeit my voting rights let alone my freedom to make my own decisions, hold property or handle my own finances and there are certainly those who would remove such right as from women if they do not assert their rights as a matter of economic convenience.. I do not subscribe to such views and never have done but ion an emergency where it is evidently necessary it would be quite desirable for a 'significant other' to act on someone's' behalf.. i.e of someone were in a 'coma'..having co-signatories to an account is a convenient way of ensuring that 'emergencies can be handled..equally such authority has to be agreed. Formally and it is not for outside parties to impose upon one. I would not and never have agreed to any such arrangements. Anyway an early night for me it is..I hope...

still no changes in respect of the issues over the IPR and fees...still all yours as always..some emotions are beyond legislation and purexxx

no changes on the emotional front either...

 

with respect Belinda Mary Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

Saturday 25.04.09

 

Dear Mark,

 

got up around 06:00...of course I published last night bathed had some supper and went to bed....7 hours sleep is a luxery indeed... ..got to the market and we're set up...thought that I'd mislaid some cards but thankfully I did take them home as intended ...and they were I looked for them this morning but probably as there are not quite as many as I'd thought I didn't realise that they were the cards that I was searching for...they were amongst some others which are not yet wrapped...had some conversation with Annabel before Marge arrived....positive positive positive...and have advised my muffin fans that I'm eating on relevant information from the authorities...Marge will be pleased she is right.... so am having lunch and catching up with a little work but have promised that I will be back soon...did do the shopping on the way back here and was organised enough this morning to take my trolley...I needed to...no deals no resolutions...same old same old... apparently there are some cheaper versions of some of the products that I am selling about... not mine but a totally different version...and nothing to do with me or 'Visible Arts'...horses for courses there's silk and imitation silk.. cabbage as we call it.. cheap imitation....funnily enough things seem to be going the other way around you won't find it on the market...it'll be in the high street.. sorry to say but much like those tights that you get dirt  heap which tear as soon as you put your foot into them...ultimately you get what you pay for....don't expect to get them at the same price....it really is a matter of what the customer wants...to pay for...they want cheap they'll buy it but there's no such thing as a free lunch.

the weather's cleared up so maybe we will see some customers....Annabel was recommending drinking a little of ones own urine am in order to address colds....etc...hmm as I recently read online scientists are advising us to eat our own faeces.. even she wasn't having that...things are hard out here....  thank God I found those cards as my vibes were getting very bad...it's the post traumatic stress of those missing paintings of mine...my vibes could kill.... as do Marge's when she's frozen....

I am still seeking the truth in respect of what on earth has happened to them... I don't care who goes to jail or for how long ..they'll find out what it is to loose their freedom for this situation has been like a snare of iniquity lies and deceit... until I have the truth I am tied up in these issues.. it is a hell hole of injustice.. why would I sanction such abuse? I am not masochistic these people won't even talk to me ..so secure and comfortable are they are they in their positions of abuse so who are they ?.For I have not asked anyone to take this work on my behalf as such. I would not count such evil doer as friends under any circumstances. No one had any right to interfere in this natter and you sir know precisely how I feel about and agree with me. It is very wicked as you yourself said. Evil is real and I am constantly beset by it and have been now since 1996. With hindsight  I am quite certain that these people were trying to ensnare me for some time prior to that and I have complete records of my activities in order to demonstrate my self employment through out this time. Those records are complete are with the authorities too and will not be rewritten however much I am threatened that they can be they will not be. Don't knock IT without I would not have been able to fight this matter as I have been and it's not as if there hasn't been significant development on human rights as a result. I will not be disappeared like the disappeared ones in South America. The whores of iniquity will not win over humanity...for that would be inhumane.

 

This dairy is copied to the lawfirms every day for posterity.. it is 100% fact. With respect as have every other relevant correspondence so that they lawyers may be fully informed in respect of any relevant dealings. This is not a breach of privacy. Where relevant a contract or correspondence may be shared with a lawfirm in order to evidence what arrangements are in place.  Trust me the dishonourable will only find that one persons word against another is simply that a dispute. Even a Bible will not verify the truth. Which is why many people refuse to swear on it. It is not truly Christmas to do so...the bible does not witness but God does. It wouldn't matter to me how many Bibles or Scriptures talismans or anything else that they had the truth can be substantiated lies cannot.

 

With respect I do not use consultants and never have bought in such services. I joined a union.

 

with respect Belinda Mary Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

Thursday 23.04.09

 

Dear Mark,

got up around 05:00...of course I published last night and did some more work ..some printing until lil issy phoned and I realised that I wasn't going to get those cards done..she had so much news it was so good to hear form her and it did make me stop..I always called her my little stress reliever and that is because being a Mother is  time out from 'work' time to listen and time to talk...time to cook and time to have quality time..yep listening to your childs' news is quality time..the best..their problems are yours to share...I really miss her so....I decided to go to bed and go to sleep ..so I was less tired this although the day was slow..half the taking of the previous week...hey at least it wasn't a 30p takings day..thought that it had been better but that was the week before well the previous one on which I'd been out. .managed to do an almost complete stock check....know what I need to stock up on...thought that I'd had a leather notebook pinched which turned up in the stripey bag??? The man with the hat as amused...so was I...?! As did my earring...which I am really glad of as they are so very nice..losing socks and earrings is so annoying...no other news except that I am tired as usual..and my ear is aching..I have been sneezing and it is not nearly as warm out there as it appears to be...came home to a very helpful message from the authorities re those muffins...and a food handling course...more education...they are already asking for them...no issues have been resolved and the Missing Art Campaign posters were out as usual...'giving back' well lets put it this way one has to be in a position to give before doing that and that should not disbar people from gaining such a position let alone compel them into some sort of surfdom to those who are as a punishment for not being in such a position and ? I do not support slavery ;et alone will I under go voluntary work as some sort of slavery dressed up as 'giving back' for people who are being robbed blind buy those who seem to think that fraud can be legalised by virtue of compelling their victims into being their slaves.. they can take a running  jump...you understand what I mean xxx I am not a spare body for them to manipulate with their lies. What's more my copyright remains exclusicely mine as it always has been. I work alone and always have done and my contributions to animated films are simply that my contribution alone and the contributions if other parties are theirs and I have never been responsible for anyone else's contributions...I am a co-authour in that respect but my artwork is not co-authored ..perhaps a little difficult to under stand but my artwork is distinctly mine alone....I don't use assistants and I never have done and with respect to the clerics the artwork that I undertook wit the kids at Church on occasions is simply that ...theirs and mine but noting to do with these legal matters I was never in their employ and I never ceded any IPR to them let alone sold them or licensed them any IPR neither was I aware of any such necessity ...If they think

that I do not need an income then they are sadly deranged of course I do I don't live off thin air and frankly I most certainly will not enter into any criminal activities and I will not have my income cede to this to whom it is not due that would be fraud. I will not sign any confidentiality agreement let alone keep quite about my issues as it is in the public interest that this matter is fully aired. It affects too many other artists in principle and we are within our rights to manage our own artwork and IPR. I certainly won't have my work attributed to someone else not even over my dead body, They wouldn't want to be me so why should they have my IPR? Trust me you wouldn't want to be in my position. I wouldn't even recommend that anyone study art if they have talent these days.. as far as I can see you just get stitched up as a ghost artist to someone with no talent.. I won't stand for it I never have done and I will continue to adopt this position.. regardless of the issue sit causes me I don't expect to be thanked for it...but I know that it sis right ..you don't come as far as I have done and alive in to wanton abuse deceit and fraud...I want to stay alive .......with respect I never collaborated with any artists during my studies...probably why I was labelled as 'far out'... I know why they give people scholarships...you're better of on new deal...you won't suffer any glimpses into what other people take for granted and you won't even benefit from as they'll be sitting their assuming the credit on your work...so it seems to me..why would I tolerate such abuse??? It's doubly abusive..then to be penalised and forced into servitude for 'being clever'???  ...

 

with respect Belinda Mary Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

Thursday 23.04.09

 

Dear Mark,

 

got up around 07:00...of I published last night and did some more work ..some printing had breakfast and bathed as usual..on both sites....did my Annual Shuttle Return, no changes...checked my accounts.. fetched my post.. checked out the potential muffin selling and am being sent info relicensing and packaging...I know all about packaging...did some more painting.. hhmhh it de-stresses me to paint and I am working on some additional canvases...did some filing.. bills suppliers ..my handheld battery has gone dead must get one ..will have to find somewhere that does them...the other number on the website is Ok and you can leave a message...I will return it...

must get on as want to get those Birthday Cards out for tomorrow and get prepped tonight rather than in the morning.. still so much want to have a baby ..the one up stairs was wailing last night but it doesn't bother me...teenagers are far more worrying but I've managed one.....of course of developments in those other matters...IPR and my artwork.

 

xxx

 

with respect Belinda Mary Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

Wednesday 22.04.09

 

Dear Mark,

 

got up around 07:00... had breakfast and bathed as usual...worked on my stock check and budgeting/planning...am finding that the weekend starts to seriously catch up with me by Wednesday but frankly I did screen almost 3000 emails yesterday whilst deleting lots of them...am still wondering how it happened...needed a break from the pc today as my eyes were completely strained so I sorted some paperwork and made notes by hand instead... even did some painting as I always paint a picture for you every year... you cared about my paintings always....

even though I may tease you as the King of bad taste it's meant as a compliment.. my birth parents suffer from the same syndrome....and they're aesthetic snobs...so it's hard being an artist and being at odds with them.... they always thought that Ben had the artistic talent... not that I would disagree that he is talented.. we all have artistic talent..even Francis...he's a good photographer....as is bruvver 'iccon..and Priscas ceramics I would like to carry and no doubt Lucie and et all are coming on...artistic families are competitive...I however did go to Art School and complete my degree after having busted in on my parents studies... trust me it had an impact on us all....and I seriously questioned their taste in Art from a young age but not in a head on way....Mummy won't discuss it...point blank. Dad well he simply showed me about everything that there was to show being an Art Tutor... so I knew from being round the places where he taught in the holidays that there were other people around studying Art who worked differently to them... I was described as 'far out ' by other at Uni but I could never see why ???? it's like the muffin card...??? I'm just a girl...well an old girl now...

 

come and see me soon? That cat's been in and out ..and guess what..I'm not mad at all...it stole ..borrowed a feather....?! didn't it take off in ever such a sneaky way...I bet that it had my tea egg and my crypto key...it's grey and it's sort of round and big at one end.. no doubt it thought that it was a mouse.. isn't that sad....dysfunctional cats stalking crypto keys...it must've thought that it was pretending to be dead but that he eyes were moving....yep it has numbers that change on it.. don't ask but it isn't a mouse.... and you're my 'cheese'..don't ask...I love.....itxxx  ps I have never put myself at any ones disposal let alone do I have any contracts other than with suppliers at present...I have no other staff than Marge who is Company Secretary and anticipate no changes in the foreseeable future and still have not signed away let alone ceded my rights let alone received a penny in lieue of them..they are though due to me exclusively. My artwork I won't even say it but wherever it is I do not know and I have no access to it. I do however have all the artwork that I have created since 1997 ...digital whatever ..and all of that is my copyright alone and always has been. It is not even the property of the company and the company is my property s is my business as it always has been. Exclusively.. Anyone pertaining anything else is a liar a cheat and a fraud. ps I still very much want to have child with you and to love and raise it together responsibly.

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

Tuesday 21.04.09

 

Dear Mark

 

got up around 07:00... had breakfast had worked until 23:00 last night...did some pages on the website....wanted to work on my accounts but after some cleaning and tidying...still some way to go but getting there...need to hoover and do that stock check then I can tidy away the stock that I've been photographing for online....did file some papers but had a rather horrible experience on tightening up some of me email accounts...I was flooded with a download of over 2000...talk about watershed but some of them ought to have got through to me at the time...as I was evidently sending from the account but not receiving? Why? Ironically it's not an account that I use often but it was used for a few newsletters and trust me...I didn't really miss them and some of them come to me via the email that I do usually use.. frankly I thought that they were being forwarded to me whatever..have had the most dreary day working my way through the flood twice.. don't ask.. but the e-effluence that surfaced went to Dear Sir frankly I'm hardened to it now...it's sleaze.....if they're online it's like a waterfall.. they keep on coming and crash your system.. well inbox....fortunately I was drenched only in TUC learning courses and alerts..not to mention my best friends Broadcast and Viking who stayed loyal despite my no n read receipts well they got them today.. I've deleted them sorry ....don't have the room...and did need o get to that reminder email re my password so that I can do my Annual Shuttle Return.. sometime today... I guess most people actually want to email someone with a name...rather than 'info' or whatever....however those organisations certainly like to keep one posted...the TUC are always busy...I do get the Parliamentary website updates these days... we oldies like it directly from Gov UK...full length Acts..BILLS rather than bite sized... pre masticated... we like something to gnaw on....there was evidence to suggest an integrity attack...very odd emails..offers of lines of .................credit  one can see what precipitated the credit crunch.. no doubt many were biting...I didn't. Obviously Dear Sir will be gnawing...nothing about my royalties pr paintings though let alone any offers of purchases ..orders etc....unless they were intercepted but I don't think so it was a practically virgin account.. but it had been activated...they may have become shored up during the migration somehow....very very odd..no deals no solutions I require my fees

and full clarification in public of what has been going on in respect of my artwork regardless of who it will embarrass...I can;'[t wait to know. I can handle it..if I can take the filth that people email me I cant take the truth. Nothing would shock me any more.

I know how low people can go and do. I want the truth and nothing less than the hard truth I refuse to sign any gagging order. After all it's not as people know what shame is or guilt is these days they don't that do they? They simply do self interests so why would I be any different? I have not d=signed away my rights let alone sold my artwork and I do not intend to do so anyone pertaining anything else is a liar and cheat as well as a fraudster. Probably an imposter. Why would I give a toss about seeing people like that so hard time. They'll love it like minded friends to play 'frenemies' with how wonderful and all at the expense of their victims..is it really right??? You sir wouldn't do that to me...if you did you know full well what the consequences would be you are not dumb but those who think that they wouldn't face such consequences must be seriously deranged if they think that they won't .. If they think that they may qualify it as art then they are seriously out to tea. Spoilt little rich things with nothing better to do. I have no concern for them whatsoever. Cold blooded thieves. I have seen artists being defrauded and suffering all my life and all my life I have opposed such abuses I will not stop now. Those undertaking such abuse in the name of art are positively sick. Degenerate. Depraved and cruel.....after all waht are sthe law and the forces here for to address such issues.. I'm happy to address you sirxxxxxxxxxx...ono escort...well hey f you must bring in the forces..but you usually don't need to.. darling you know how much that little difference counts for me...well hey I can handle it...

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

Monday 20.04.09

 

Dear Sir

 

got up around 07:00... had breakfast checked my accounts.. Marge phoned....met Marge for coffee after doing the banking...it's good to be banking some 'takings'.. can't wait to bank some 'profit' am preparing to do so....whilst batting away at those outstanding payments...more days on the market.. more expenditure.. more 'takings' but still insufficient 'profit'...must get the online facility completed...phoned a couple of suppliers as the other headache is getting the supplies that I need and want when I need and want them...being seasonal has it's merits.. but it's stressful...trying to identify what is likely to sell....worst of all...is the fact that things do eventually sell...just when you ask yourself why you bought them.. they start selling...one thing that I've learnt in the last year is how unpredictable the market is...whether that's because of the 'recession' or not I don't know...Marge says that it's been going on since 1998..as far as I can see it's been going on all my life....despite working full time...really hope that dear sir hasn't been giving my monie to the wrong parties...I'll sue if he has...rest assured no changes on that front...am still waiting for those fees. Strangely enough the cops showed up at the bank but they weren't there for Marge or I...maybe they were doing some banking....but there was a rather disgruntled looking Gentleman speaking to them..dear Sir? I've never met him in person yet to my knowledge...

ps I am not expecting any visitors and you ware always welcomexxxx  but you will still have to take me as you find me....have start the cleaning though.. and am making quiche ..a girl needs some time out and I admit that I did have an afternoon nap...am pretty tired still from the weekend... with respect despite the difficulties that I am facing I would not do anything for money...although I may well bake some muffins... I absolutely refuse to do it with who I am told to do it...people like that have absolutely no role in my life and will not have any...they can do it with themselves. Or even better 'one another' just count me out 100%. They know who they are and they know what I mean. Not my scene. Never has been either.. although I'm sure that they will not appreciate why let alone understand it and that is not my responsibility. If they do it that's there issue not mine I didn't tell them to I don't do that they as am I are responsible for their own actions...Mündigkeit..a useful word which I need to translate...''feelings though are feelings we all have them and I have feeling for you sir...as you well know...whereas although they irritate ad annoy me aggravate me and stress me one has to accept that their right to freedom of expression is that annoying but at least they express themsleves and their 'conditions' for all to see...theirs not mine..live and let love no doubt I annoy the **** out of them too,...'difference' does that ..it's priceless but I guess it's just who and what I am...can't help it and I will not be forced to be like them...I do have the right to be an 'individual' thank God I mean if we were all the same what would we do it would be very boring....and that is my idea and my story.. you know what I really like about you sir is that little difference that makes such a big difference and of course I still want to schedule a baby immediately... although libel is libel and I am happy to sue for damages where that is the case...it might shut them up. Better than outting a sock in it after all hitting them where it rally huurts..in the pocket does have some advantages ..you know that they really feel the pin and you know that there is some financial gain...maybe my recession will soon be over...and maybe they will refrain from their spin...it can get you into serious trouble when you're out of your depth...just think about it ..lookalikeing someone who's in trouble can be very dangerous...I wouldn't risk trying to pretend to be someone so recklessly and never have done. On the piss and on the take will have consequences. There is no short cut to success........although some peoples 'success' is no doubt underpinned by their ruthless calculations...and willingness to take advantage of 'grey areas of law'...if such areas are 'clarified' to their disadvantage...I have no sympathy for them what so ever...their ruthless and callous manipulations are their doing and the consequences of their actions their just desserts..and no doubt they will have insurance.

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

Sunday 19.04.09

 

Dear Sir

 

got up around 06:00... had breakfast got to the market got my pitch and set up..was allowed to spill over onto Lukes' pitch as he wasn't coming..he turned up at 10.30 having just woken up and looking 10 years younger as we all do when we get some kip....sleep really is the best tonic...I was glad that he was alright....it was still slow but we have covered todays' pitch again to my utter astonishment...now all I need to do is pay off the outstanding stock.. the lock-up...re-stock....cover the online facility and phone bills...office and materials...equipment capital expenditure light heat and water travel ..and miscellaneous such as insurance...it goes on and ?I might make some profit so I will be continuing to seek the payment of those fees and the whereabouts of my artwork.. as I told Jack I did alert the serious fraud squad as soon as I was told that it had been put into a skip not to mention every organisation that I could find online who might assist...there are many art theft alert watchdogs ect..so any one stalking me that information is relatively old and my soul shit has been poured out to the lawyers for the last 12 years...frankly there's precious little that any stalking imposter could impress them with...they would know how to cross reference it and I asked them to forward my correspondences to dear sir..so any little darlings ono gender specifics can rest assured that they would know who dear sir is ...despite any drugs...they have the information and will no doubt act accordingly....with respect darling I still want you and a baby...I have been dining alone and will be having an early night post bath and publishing....had an all day english breakfast at the S& M where the manager told my wait that I was very rich.. really please I am not and it irritates me... in light of the loss of my artwork etc and this IPR issue...14 years is a very very long time....to fight for what one is legally entitled to. Too long and what might have been the best year so my life.. I never got the feel good factor...what is it? Bitterness might set in I wouldn't cede my rights...not over my dead body even certainly not to any establishment poseur with an identity crisis. Not over my dead body. My copyright will last until 75 years after my death and even in death the artists still remains the author if the work. that will not change ever. I am not a ghost artist I never have been and I member will be. I would take up weapons to defend myself first and my art. They can torture someone else with their desperate wanabeees..I really do not care who's sponsoring them but I am not.. I am certainly not ghosting for them either....at least I am not using people for lampshades so why should I have to act as human lampshade to someone else or vie versa...perversion is not my game. Talked about fascism with Jack and art...my German family and their artistic background...I would not sell my paintings on a market stall and never have done...selling cards is one thi9ng but not artwork, jack had a painting for sale...he sold it but frankly it would break my hear to see my sketch books and artwork sold like that ...the years and time as well as precious monies not much to some but all that I had sold off for a nickel and a dime.. isn't that they way the dealers like it ...get the artist in the gutter and take the work from them like sweets from a baby.. I will not sell my artwork like that and I never did I always issue receipts and anyone claiming to have bought it from me is an outright liar and fraudster and I will not perjure my self for such villains for villains they are. Over my dead nobody and I mean it. I would certainly not let some crook put their signature to my artwork knowingly or willingly let alone collude with such villains. I am an artist and a human being and I will not e degraded into some sort of raw materials for others to use and abuse to their twisted and perverted will..in the name of any authority let lone God. Maybe it's why Damian sells preserved  cows....it's hardly wrought from the soul as a great painting is...but most people these days never see a painting.....Jack had one...and sold it for a song....I suspect and a kiss....definitely. Jack gets by... am letting dear sir now what I need to keep ticking over....ps I am not expecting any visitors and you ware always welcomexxxx  but you will have to take me as you find me....

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

 

Saturday 18.04.09

 

Dear Sir,

 

got up around 06:00... had breakfast  wrote the Artists Diary and published it then....got to the market got my pitch and set up...it was still slow but we have covered todays pitch again to my astonishment ...wonders will never cease but the weather was beautiful...I went home for lunch and to do some more leaflets while marge minded the stall...I also made some muffins as Teerry is insistent that someone should be selling cakes...after all I could manage some muffins on Saturdays as I already make them anyway...just need to check the health and safety etc ..I gave the muffins to various neighbours to try and the girls are vey excited...big hugs again....got home bathed again and put rice on to burn whilst writing diary now...don't want to do it tomorrow am...should be getting ready for tomorrow now...do I have it in me...the will ..I especially want to find my notebook...which would mean tidying my desk...now??? would rather be with you darlingxxx Annabel made me laugh when we were discussing pregnancies....I mentioned that my Mother had 5 of us within 5 years...she reckoned that women were healthier then...no I said..she didn't have the pill....I go pregnant on a one off...well lets put it this way Darling was a definite love child...struggling poverty stricken students working 3 evenings a week do not get much intercourse...even when engaged...especially to a super sensitive.. male artists struggling with the temptations of St Anthony ...yes issy was meant to be...trouble was I thought that she was the vitamin tablets.. well let's put it this way she certainly drives me...never made that connection before...hmmm...am taking the pre natal tablets darling....I really am...   Annabel's' friends expect her to coo for them after she's been on the stall all day and up since 5am...I'd chuck 'em out I said...my Brother came and fetched my keys and cooked for me last Sunday.....sorry to be so one up manship but bless him he didn't even expect me to talk to him as he likes to get to bed by 8pm as he's up early to work on the building sites....I really am lucky...I did also freely admit to her that I do not like Opera...Although I do have an 'o' level in music and did take guitar lessons lived singing at school and do but have little time for music let alone money ...sadly due to circumstances...lil issy is my musical input...Dad hates pop and well there was plenty of music with Mum but very diverse...  try listening to Hit Parade....or world forces radio....

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

Friday 17.04.09

 

Dear Sir,

 

got up around 05:00... had breakfast  wrote the Artists Diary and published it then got on with printing out my labels....got to the market got my pitch and set up...it was a slowish day but I had plenty to do and was able to make use of my portable table effectively...a face from the past delighted me....Mary ..who used too work at the Venture Centre...she's elsewhere now but we caught up...of course she wanted to know what Lil Issy was up to...the Glissando band used to rehearse there and Lil Issy at one time participated....but she is more 'one with her guitar' as I explained to my neighbour later ..however critical she is of her performance...Terry was playing 'Top Cat'...and the man with the hat' the Shadows....we even had someone dancing in the street not just me jigging at one point...it was a nice atmosphere and definitely warmer...did sell somethings... and covered the discounted part of the pitch for the Friday so that was great...as I've only started to go out on Fridays about 2 months ago.. whilst I continue to develop my websites and continue to do my own designs and animations...yep 'lil chick' is all my entirely own work...sound included...someone complimented my prices...hmmm...do hope that that was for real as I was thrilled...but then the Ideal Home Show would be pricier I expect.. than a market stall.. it does cost a lot to do those exhibitions...but if my prices are as comparatively low as she implied then you really ought to buy form me...that really pleased me as I do work hard at sourcing gifts attending 5-6 Trade Shows a year...and I have done over the last 4 years ..prior to that I would spend my time walking home from meetings looking for presents for my Brothers and Sisters for their many Birthdays.. etc.. little things that one can afford when one has miserable income...trust me I can walk fast and take in information too...browsing...much like Mummy used to beach comb... with us...got home in fairly good time and was absolutely beat,....went to bed by 22:00....having put my scales into the bag so that I can weigh up my latest prices for the website ..don't ask...it's so complicated...still want need you sir and those matters are still not resolved...xxx  with respect as much as I appreciate Marge she does not have to assist me...she has a nominal position with the company and I do not prevail her.. she volunteers to assist me when she does...and that is her right.. she has many friends on the market and we have lived in the area for years...had an interesting conversation with the man in the hat about creativity and control...I am so grateful for my parents teaching me to be independent...it mattered to them extremely...it's simply about subjugating those who are competent to those who are incompetent and attributing the efforts of the competent not to mention their due income to those who are not. I will not tolerate it. I have no time for the political thinking. I do not have to forfeit my human rights to another. Let alone forego them.

I will not cede to liars let alone thieves and I continue to keep dear sir posted. Dear Sir is rather better positioned to judge but no doubt takes recourse to the courts. As advised to you some time ago ..

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

Re Wednesday 15.04.09

 

Thursday 16.04.09

 

Dear Sir,

 

got up around 07:00... had breakfast  wrote the Artists Diary and published it then got on with sorting out the websites and the things that are going to the market tomorrow. Did my banking and arranged for an upgrade to my software..it's that time of year and they know that I've budgeted for it...what's more there'll be teething problems with an y new release which is why they are so generous to me..it's taken me a year to address some of the issues with some of the software..'glitch's' but hey it's one of those things with anything new...development is not paid for which is why any feedback is welcome....the London Photographic Studio is now Studio something they called me re some photos that had been done on a shoot that I participated in as part of a free promotion that the past studio had undertaken and a good deal it was...but it seems that I could obtain the rest of the images for a very fair fee....at the time it was the images or a laptop to be honest and the laptop it was...but I did get the one free image with t e nominal for fee for postage and costs..it's graced my website ...ever since...by 22:30 I'd started my new labels and yes if you got an offer last week it was because whilst still working from a list of prices for new additions I c certainly was offering some items at less than they are now so Spring Offers they were because I hadn't yet completed the labelling and I am kind as I will not be seen to have put the prices above the price that they would be set at...I have a pretty systematic pricing system across the board...and yes some items are clearly still marked down from the sale and are sold as such.....it is evident that most of the items are priced up....got to bed by 23:00 ...still expect to see you sweetheartx

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

Re Wednesday 15.04.09

 

Thursday 16.04.09

 

Dear Sir,

 

got up around 07:00... had breakfast  wrote the Artists Diary and published it then got on with sorting out those postage rates more financial projections and urgent post....wrote to dear sir e that as well as advising him that I want/need to schedule a baby....with Father...so please get back quick...now's the time and as far as I can see it should factor in ok...with work...being ones own boss has its advantages...will be sending through my schedule for the year to dear sir as I do need those fees in order to underpin my plans...nobody else's thank-you but I am investing in any spurious projects at this time...still want youx of course no significant developments...at all...am staying on track as I have advised dear sir...I'm certainly not looking for any casual involvements ...no visitors as usual....no calls other than my scales man...I even recognise his voice now...think I will be needing them too...as well as those fees. Oh and updated the www.bhaletavisiblearts.com website too....so much to do on that site too...one day I may be able to afford staff...but not right now...good news is that my hits look like they're moving up by about 30-35%..not bad..I'm rather pleased...

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

Monday 13.04.09

 

Tuesday 14.04.09

 

Dear Sir,

 

got up around 09:00... had breakfast  wrote the Artists Diary and published it then got on with sorting out the problems on the visibleartsltdretail facility..yes I am on to those postage rates and yes it looks as if there's been an upgraded on the software or something it looks slightly different and the maximum weights are all at top rate...not what they should be on a max shipping rate of 1000g...something's not right.....could be an integrity attack...must give them a ring

was phoned by another telecom company wanting to sell me their services...they hung up .I mean if they were working with BT you'd think that they'd know...they didn't really want to believe that I was the director...they got the manager on the line well tough I am. Gob smacked ..yes a woman...what was it the director answers the phone can't be?? Well she does and I do...life's a bitch.

     when I told them what I'm paying...??

still no holiday for me yet just another long hard day slogging it out with the computer....working out all the new postage rates...well there are so many and I am trying to streamline it a little.. too much choice is confusing...still want youx of course no significant developments...at all..

.

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

Re Sunday 13.04.09

 

Monday 14.04.09

 

Dear Sir,

 

got up around 06:00... had breakfast  wrote the Artists Diary and published it then got down to the market with Simnel cake and Easter eggs....set up by 11ish ..having been asked where Subterranea was on the way up to the lock-up...Jim knew ..I hadn't a clue..Lukes been there..I've heard of it...I don't club....unless Lil Issy has a thing on and I have to be careful not to get labelled a Lesbian or groupie.. after all it's not

going to help me to have a baby...it's so hard when your lil ones grow up and it's hard enough being a parent without adding to ones responsibilities difficulties that are not real.. with all respect to the gay community if you don't have those issues it would be inappropriate to feign having them and really disingenuous to them...not to mention irresponsible. I do not endorse 'faking it and never have done' ..deceit is a curse....and fly the nest...they do and they will so bear that in mind...   Terry turned up good and early for some cake...he'd thanked me for the jam earlier and I'd said that I had cake but that it would go fast....anyway it was a very slow day but I'd not really expected any different....quite busy but people were looking...lots of tourists..it's difficult when people don't speak much English and you're trying to work out what nationality they might be...si si si ...quite a few Spanish people..it varies tremendously....week by week...anyway Bruvver Iccon phoned and arranged to fetch my keys so that he could get out of the hostel for a while and cook some food for us Issy and I used to do the same when we were in that 'Hotel???'..it was very smart from the front but let's say that on room service was it included and there were no mini bars...and the catering was 30 of us to one kitchen?? Breakfast was included but continental...cereal tea or coffee...toast and jam of course sugar and milk..Issy refused to be seen in the breakfast room for our entire stay practically and walked around the block until no one could see her entering the building ..That's how affected she was...at 13...it was simply not a home. I think that it put us off Hotels for quite a while....the whole experience was such a perversions of reality as dished put to one in advertising...probably what many people experience when going on holiday...why do we do it..) Great arrangement....so after I'd served up Simmer Cake discussed astrology with Luke who's an air sign with lots of earth...the dangers of prophesying...( you see I always wanted lots of children. and was told that I would only have one...it really hurts ..Marge was told that she would die at 60 well she didn't but she didn't plan ahead...trust me it affected her...I mean she's a lot older now...what do you do,...what I'm 60 and a day and not dead. what do I do now..but I want another child...just not ten as I told you.....I really do..2 3? I'm sure that it's possible....I mean I might live another 100 years knowing my luck and I don't want my life to be a 100 year war...but with all respect I am not responsible for other peoples that is not what I want or ever wanted...it does entail having a co-parent in child raising as far as I am concerned and preferably the other parent...which rules out certain arrangements which I am not considering anyway...it's my life..).carpentry and crystals...as we do...Marge had arrived and I had had a very late breakfast at the Sausage and Mash...received a present from Jack,..thank-you but where was the ring???..( I don't really like getting empty boxes even if they come with a feather on top...he reminds me of Pip who gave Issy a dried up carrot one year..it had been mailed to her..at least there was content...I know that I once mailed you some fruit...but it as sent special delivery....I like to be different and the smarties were deliberately loose...that was the idea....so what a girl has to have a sense of humour..even though the fart cushion annoyed the staff...you operated it..maybe they need to grow up and develop a sense of humour? It's always the case when they're taking the piss you have to laugh but how dare you take the piss out of them grow up darlings...enjoy...it's not every day that a girl outs her thoughts online honestly,...).wrapped and packed and practically come in last with my gear to a won out Jim...I got home ..having walked last that restaurant again and the biggest Easter Egg which I have ever seen to some very nice stew...'Iccon left pretty soon and I hit the sack...exhausted...thinking of youxxx   the mind is a peculiar thing...whatever it will think what it is inclined to think....told Terry about 'Lil chick' online....must get that online shop sorted it's gone white??? It was there the other day may be they're going maintenance must check their notices... told Terry about my websites....my issues persist...no changes.. no miracles for Easter ..same old same old.....Luke had one of my hot cross buns...it agreed with him...everyone was complimenting my cake ..many suggested that I simply sell cake but no as enthusiastic as people may be when they're being given things it's a different matter when you're asking them to pay..the cake is a mastercalss recipe..and it is not a cheap cake to make...the profit would not be huge and frankly I would need to ensure that my premises had been approved etc etc...life's not that simple and I have so much else in hand...my copyright interests will not be ceded sold out or handed over to those who covet them.. see you in court first ..I mean it...you bake cake and get back to the kitchen. I'll advertise the cake online get it made and sell it that way..if at all...and I'll be doing the promotions if at all.. you see there is no copyright in a recipe....anyone could copy the business...the profit is all in the packaging and brand recognition...it really is the difference between the brand cream egg which we have grown up with and the cheap supermarket alternative which are different..trust me and I'll be pickling up a brand one soon as they do sell all year round..ironically...whether I could push Simnel Cake all year round is another question ..but thanks for the vote of confidence I am very flattered but 'flattery is flattery'..just so you can get ahead for next Easter ..it was a Good Whore-keeping recipe as I fondly refer to the tome...after all the way to a mans heart is through is stomach...I'll make you one anyday...sir...

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

Re Sunday 13.04.09

 

Monday 14.04.09

 

Dear Sir,

 

got up around 06:00... had breakfast  wrote the Artists Diary and published it then got down to the market with Simnel cake and Easter eggs....set up by 11ish ..having been asked where Subterranea was on the way up to the lock-up...Jim knew ..I hadn't a clue..Lukes been there..I've heard of it...I don't club....unless Lil Issy has a thing on and I have to be careful not to get labelled a Lesbian or groupie.. after all it's not

going to help me to have a baby...it's so hard when your lil ones grow up and it's hard enough being a parent without adding to ones responsibilities difficulties that are not real.. with all respect to the gay community if you don't have those issues it would be inappropriate to feign having them and really disingenuous to them...not to mention irresponsible. I do not endorse 'faking it and never have done' ..deceit is a curse....and fly the nest...they do and they will so bear that in mind...   Terry turned up good and early for some cake...he'd thanked me for the jam earlier and I'd said that I had cake but that it would go fast....anyway it was a very slow day but I'd not really expected any different....quite busy but people were looking...lots of tourists..it's difficult when people don't speak much English and you're trying to work out what nationality they might be...si si si ...quite a few Spanish people..it varies tremendously....week by week...anyway Bruvver Iccon phoned and arranged to fetch my keys so that he could get out of the hostel for a while and cook some food for us Issy and I used to do the same when we were in that 'Hotel???'..it was very smart from the front but let's say that on room service was it included and there were no mini bars...and the catering was 30 of us to one kitchen?? Breakfast was included but continental...cereal tea or coffee...toast and jam of course sugar and milk..Issy refused to be seen in the breakfast room for our entire stay practically and walked around the block until no one could see her entering the building ..That's how affected she was...at 13...it was simply not a home. I think that it put us off Hotels for quite a while....the whole experience was such a perversions of reality as dished put to one in advertising...probably what many people experience when going on holiday...why do we do it..) Great arrangement....so after I'd served up Simmer Cake discussed astrology with Luke who's an air sign with lots of earth...the dangers of prophesying...( you see I always wanted lots of children. and was told that I would only have one...it really hurts ..Marge was told that she would die at 60 well she didn't but she didn't plan ahead...trust me it affected her...I mean she's a lot older now...what do you do,...what I'm 60 and a day and not dead. what do I do now..but I want another child...just not ten as I told you.....I really do..2 3? I'm sure that it's possible....I mean I might live another 100 years knowing my luck and I don't want my life to be a 100 year war...but with all respect I am not responsible for other peoples that is not what I want or ever wanted...it does entail having a co-parent in child raising as far as I am concerned and preferably the other parent...which rules out certain arrangements which I am not considering anyway...it's my life..).carpentry and crystals...as we do...Marge had arrived and I had had a very late breakfast at the Sausage and Mash...received a present from Jack,..thank-you but where was the ring???..( I don't really like getting empty boxes even if they come with a feather on top...he reminds me of Pip who gave Issy a dried up carrot one year..it had been mailed to her..at least there was content...I know that I once mailed you some fruit...but it as sent special delivery....I like to be different and the smarties were deliberately loose...that was the idea....so what a girl has to have a sense of humour..even though the fart cushion annoyed the staff...you operated it..maybe they need to grow up and develop a sense of humour? It's always the case when they're taking the piss you have to laugh but how dare you take the piss out of them grow up darlings...enjoy...it's not every day that a girl outs her thoughts online honestly,...).wrapped and packed and practically come in last with my gear to a won out Jim...I got home ..having walked last that restaurant again and the biggest Easter Egg which I have ever seen to some very nice stew...'Iccon left pretty soon and I hit the sack...exhausted...thinking of youxxx   the mind is a peculiar thing...whatever it will think what it is inclined to think....told Terry about 'Lil chick' online....must get that online shop sorted it's gone white??? It was there the other day may be they're going maintenance must check their notices... told Terry about my websites....my issues persist...no changes.. no miracles for Easter ..same old same old.....Luke had one of my hot cross buns...it agreed with him...everyone was complimenting my cake ..many suggested that I simply sell cake but no as enthusiastic as people may be when they're being given things it's a different matter when you're asking them to pay..the cake is a mastercalss recipe..and it is not a cheap cake to make...the profit would not be huge and frankly I would need to ensure that my premises had been approved etc etc...life's not that simple and I have so much else in hand...my copyright interests will not be ceded sold out or handed over to those who covet them.. see you in court first ..I mean it...you bake cake and get back to the kitchen. I'll advertise the cake online get it made and sell it that way..if at all...and I'll be doing the promotions if at all.. you see there is no copyright in a recipe....anyone could copy the business...the profit is all in the packaging and brand recognition...it really is the difference between the brand cream egg which we have grown up with and the cheap supermarket alternative which are different..trust me and I'll be pickling up a brand one soon as they do sell all year round..ironically...whether I could push Simnel Cake all year round is another question ..but thanks for the vote of confidence I am very flattered but 'flattery is flattery'..just so you can get ahead for next Easter ..it was a Good Whore-keeping recipe as I fondly refer to the tome...after all the way to a mans heart is through is stomach...I'll make you one anyday...sir...ps have reasiled that the blushing is probably simply the first stages of hyperthermia for it was very damp yesterday and by the time that I got to go to the cafe I'd been outside for a good 7 hours and I was cold and shivering...that cafe is nice and warm.

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

Saturday 11.04.09

 

Sunday 12.04.09

 

Dear Sir,

 

got up around 06:00... and got myself to the market not to late to get that spot that others are not so keen on...my neighbour was back with textiles and one way or another we brightened the corner up.. it can be rather dark when the clouds are out and it did rain as predicted but not to badly...it was a relief to have some space and Sophia is back from her break with a new hairstyle and looking relaxed...it was good to see everyone again...how can missing one week seem so long...Marge arrived by lunchtime and I shopped on the way home and caught up with cooking some hot cross buns...I know poor Marge of course I wasn't back as soon as I had wanted to be  but hey we had sold some things..and not done as badly as we might've ...but didn't cover the pitch so not so good...

at least I'm not carrying a cross around or   being carried around on a mattress to feed bed bugs...religion and faith are not entirely compatible and my neighbour was busy giving interviews on her views now she is Annabel and apologies to her friend who does help her but somewhere along the lines I got confused about her being Annabel...probably because people say 'Annabels' coming to the market today but meaning that her stall will be there....so I made my apologies accordingly but she wasn't bothered about the assertions that I had made about her views they were thankfully in line with hers after all friends have things in common don't they now??? Thank God they're not frenemies..that might've got very confusing... we were offered £ 3-5 for the cockerals ..sorry but we do have to cover more than the pitch fee.......I know that times are hard but I don't deals with the manufacturers ...and frankly running a market stall is not cheap...it is time consuming...frankly they look great and attracted a lot of attention...as did my cards ....which was pleasing...to late for Easter but they were out quite a bit but getting a sinus infection isn't pleasant and I was not up for another pro-longed ear infection as I suffered one last year so my takings may be down as a result but at least I am fit again....in light of the extreme winter which has triggered special payments towards heating bills for people on low incomes ...I am pleased to have my relatively speaking....I was pretty tired by the end of the day and didn't get home until 19:30...walking past people eating in restaurants.... wondering what they are dong there...well why they are eating there...to be seen...? to be in the area? Shops closing down are being snapped up by those who are making money...on the way up and drinking water..

 

wondering when you will see me again....had hot cross buns for supper...to late and too tired to cook and eat more at least  had the foresight to cook some lunch on the oven with those buns.... I am particularly partial to a hot cross bun and am beginning to get there with baking bread with gluten free flour...a really difficult thing...pizza may be back on the menu....I used to bake home made on Fridays for Lil Issy..kids eat like other kids they like 'pizza' and hey if you part pre back pizza bases and freeze them you can quickly add pre-made sauce and any variety of toppings to suit  anyone needs...very good for Friday nights...I know about poverty and let's face it the recession may be hitting hard but some of us have not ever known a luxery lifestyle and the average income for artists/creators is so low that the tax issue is a non issue as far as I am concerned I have aspired tp paying tax for the last 20 years ....I am not ceding my copyright let alone selling out just managing it. I do expect to see the income from it that is outstanding to me materialise and I have absolutely no problem with managing it in accordance with the law...I am not a geek I am an artist who refuses to be labelled 'deranged;' simply for being able to create alternatives to what is available...not to mention flag them up too...that doesn't make me a machine either and some people may obsess over the digital difference but that's their issue not mine. Try logic.. it may be scientific but it does have a lot of very useful applications....emotion is great too but you need a healthy mix of both.. I wouldn't want to be without my freezer.. let alone my oven.. those are basic necessities. There are more but living on the street is not good for anyone anywhere. You know what talking to people is so much more valuable than talking about them...

.

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

re Friday 10.04.09

 

Saturday 11.04.09

 

Dear Sir,

 

got up around 03:00... completed the animation editing it and adding the Visible Arts Ltd famous production credit..the space invading and provocatively coloured letter 'A' the alphabet has so many uses....had breakfast  wrote the Artists Diary and forwarded it to Dear Sir with an explanation re that advert it is finished.. sent him the password...got to the market got my pitch and was set up by about 11am..t takes so long when you have new stuff and where to out those cocks.....which had people crowing was a good question...one of them kept swinging from the shelf top ..I swear it's alive ...others thought that they were real and stuffed....eat your hearts out Damien.. Visible Arts is getting there.. but at a price that anyone can afford....and with so much more consideration for endangered pieces....and frankly by the end of the day I can assure you I had swum with sharks.. got home pretty exhausted and frankly ate too many chocolate Easter eggs as was to tired to much else other than write to Dear Sir...who never replies...but mo doubt takes everything that I do write on board....it's a canny arrangement....it enables me as a woman to find my voice and frankly it really I important for women to articulate their views carefully...that is not being 'macho' it is reflective and frankly currently I am amazed at how well I am managing to conceal the real emotions that I carry ...and the market yesterday was nothing like what I would have expected from 'Good Friday' went to bed as soon as I started falling asleep at the computer.

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

re Thursday 09.04.09

 

Friday 10.04.09

 

Dear Sir,

 

got up around 06:00... had breakfast  wrote the Artists Diary and published it then continued to work on an animation for Easter...suffice to say that was about all that I did do apart from finish decorating the Simnel Cakes...taking the latest products to the lock-up without offending Jim...getting my post doing a little more food shopping..having a garbled conversation with Issy on the mobile whilst surrounded by traffic...banking and talking to Dad too..who is really not well...poor him..but the phone went crazy with faxing...again I do not fax so please do not fax me!! Continued the lipsynching until really late again...ooh an published some more images of my latest products online of course with a flagging up of the market stall but no advert as yet..tomorrow... with respect i have always strived to work independently...

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

Re Tuesday 07.04.09

 

Wednesday 08.04.09

 

Dear Sir,

 

got up around 06:00... had breakfast  wrote the Artists Diary and published it then continued to work on an animation for Easter...suffice to say that was about all that I did do apart from do that voice over....went surprisingly well and I've got the speakers and the mike working....it's just a one liner...but it seems ok just have to do the lip synch...but couldn't resist adding some more detail...I know can't help myself.. got my delivery.. checked it through am devastated not to have any eggs.. but have plenty of cocks...no hens...that will be why...hmmm they're great admittedly had to put then in the bedroom....??? Where else....Marge spotted one when she came to pick up some Easter Cards...hmmmm  hideous she said...my heat sank...what's that...see what I mean...at least she liked her birthday present and frankly that was a relief.....older people have firm views...thankfully I am the boss and being a nice person I have made her a Simnel cake anyway...despite her opinions which she is free to voice...it's what we love her for...a constant reminder to me that we do not all have rose coloured glasses....despite the fact that Mummy and I do they have come in different shades...just as phrases and expressions are not common to everyone one ...had lunch...

photographed the whole lot and confirmed receipt of it...

by then I was pretty exhausted.. texted issy...had cocoa  it was getting on and went to bed around 22:30.........

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

Re Tuesday 07.04.09

 

Wednesday 08.04.09

 

Dear Sir,

 

got up around 06:00... had breakfast  wrote the Artists Diary and published it then continued to work on an animation for Easter...suffice to say that was about all that I did do apart from do that voice over....went surprisingly well and I've got the speakers and the mike working....it's just a one liner...but it seems ok just have to do the lip synch...but couldn't resist adding some more detail...I know can't help myself.. got my delivery.. checked it through am devastated not to have any eggs.. but have plenty of cocks...no hens...that will be why...hmmm they're great admittedly had to put then in the bedroom....??? Where else....Marge spotted one when she came to pick up some Easter Cards...hmmmm  hideous she said...my heat sank...what's that...see what I mean...at least she liked her birthday present and frankly that was a relief.....older people have firm views...thankfully I am the boss and being a nice person I have made her a Simnel cake anyway...despite her opinions which she is free to voice...it's what we love her for...a constant reminder to me that we do not all have rose coloured glasses....despite the fact that Mummy and I do they have come in different shades...just as phrases and expressions are not common to everyone one ...had lunch...

photographed the whole lot and confirmed receipt of it...

by then I was pretty exhausted.. texted issy...had cocoa  it was getting on and went to bed around 22:30.........

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A

 

 

Monday 06.04.09

 

Tuesday 07.04.09

 

Dear Sir,

 

got up around 05:00... had breakfast  wrote the Artists Diary and published it then continued to work on an animation for Easter...suffice to say that was about all that I did do apart from organise some payments to a supplier of small items for the stall...weigh up some other items and cost quote/cost an online sale via email...had wanted to get Issy to listen to my voice over by the end of the day but hey that'll be tomorrow...family are always tough critics...Marge phoned and will visit tomorrow...

 

by the way had lots more sent to in respect of the family history tree...have forwarded it to dear sir...and Mummy has received the initial email too...hmm...will peruse it when I have time but animation is time consuming even with modern technology ..and I'm working out the dubbing....having watched so many dub overs as a child in Germany...it took me years to work out what films I'd already seen when I moved here...after all with different voices and titles it gets very confusing....somewhere along the line you think ...well I have seen this before but I didn't hear it the same way...trust me the lip synching is an issue or should I politely say challenge...with animation one has enormous advantages...it's so universal......that includes you Mark...still want to see youx it's hardly as if you're to be overlooked. You know that I hold you in the deepest of affection. No one can stop me from doing that.

 

with respect Belinda Hale B.A Hons M.A